“I’m trying to smile brightly but I don’t like it. I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me. Just like her, I wanna be pretty. I wanna be pretty. Don't lie to my face cuz I know I'm ugly“-- Ugly, 2NE1

I just love it. The uptempo track said that beauty standard is so annoying. This song contained ”just another girl” emotion. Feeling when people think you’re so-so: not beautiful, smart, talented, and skilled, but you keep struggling on. But hey, we’re not “just another girls” just because we’re not considered as the pretty ones.

Lazily woke up this morning (it's sunday anyway *innocent face mode: on) and started my day with those clothes need to be washed. Hihihi. After took a bath and had a breakfast (I ate martabak, biscuit, and a plate of rice. Bye bye diet), I read Gogirl magazine I just bought last night. I found many good articles. Tadaaaaaa, I got inspired to write about girl’s life. I'm completely agree with this magazine’s opinion: girls have too much deadlines. Of course count the (almost) rigid one such as you have to marry before turned into 25. Not so long ago, for the first time ever my parents asked me about man. They said they never saw me stick to someone. This kind of pressure is ok until it’s spoken by our parents *try to smile. I often heard these intimidating sentences: "At least start a relationship. You need to marry one or couple year from now on" *rolling eyes. Yeah, its fine too until I realized that I remain single all this time *sob sob.

Ku lepas baterai telepon genggamku

Agar tak dapat ku ketik pesan untukmu

Terhadang langkah memanggilmu

Sosok yang ku ingini sepanjang aliran darah

Ku pasrahkan rasa gundah

Tak menatap foto-foto yang dicuri melalui kamera

Menolak mendengar rekaman suaramu

Sesak berjejalan di kartu memoriku

Ketika bersama jarak ku pandang, kau bak mengikat bintang-bintang dalam rasinya. Selain menyusun konstelasi, aku yakin bintang juga menyusun namamu. Di malam syahdu, pikiranku digelantungi bintang-bintang yang menari lambat dalam alunan akustik. Aku tak putus terkesima pada sepotong denting yang menaburkan kedamaian di sekelilingku itu.