Setahun berlalu sejak aku terakhir kali berziarah ke tempat pembaringanmu. Ketika aku melintasi kamar tempat dulu kau tertidur panjang, ada nyeri yang terlalu gelap untuk disebut sebuah emosi. Aku tak tahu apakah aku sanggup singgah ke kamar itu seandainya pun kau masih di sana. Langit masih abu-abu hari ini. Dahan tua di samping kamar itu menua. Aku masih membayangkan keranjang pesanku utuh tergeletak di meja kamar itu. Semenjak kau terlelap teramat nyenyak, aku gentar pada koridor panjang yang tengah ku lintasi ini. Aku takut karena aku kembali bisa mendengar harapan, doa, tangis, dan kepasrahan yang menggantung di langit-langit rumah sakit. Dalam ketiadaan derit napasmu, aku bisa mendengar tangisku sendiri.

Big Bang dropped their newest songs called Bae Bae and Loser. Between the two, I’m into Loser more as the melancholy hip hop track was like speaking to me. Bae Bae is a mid-tempo track with cool snares sound and Loser is a ballad with a slow tempo song. While Bae Bae sounds playful-cheerful, Loser has a dark atmosphere and is emotional. I think I can relate to this RnB-with-hip hop-touch song. As soon as I heard this song, I keep singing the lyrics especially the “loser, loner, a coward who pretends to be tough” part that easily stuck in my mind. Big Bang really matured now. Their songs aren’t the fancy, flashy, upbeat songs but songs that tell the reality. The honest and sincere lyrics can touch the listener’s heart and yes Big Bang did it on me.