Hello, friends. How have you been? I wish you all a great start to 2023. Anyway, have you by any chance heard that (ISC)2 provided free cybersecurity training and exam for 1 million people? If you haven’t then please check it out: One Million FREE (ISC)² Certified in Cybersecurity Courses and Exams. 

I recently had the opportunity to take the training and exam and after experiencing it first-hand, I encourage you to do so. I know you may or may not see yourself in that one of the most talked-about fields in IT. However, whether you want to have a career in cybersecurity or not, I suggest that you learn it (especially when it comes with no price tag) since protecting information is a significant part of our life in the digital era. Learning the fundamental of it wouldn’t hurt you and I believe that you’ll thank yourself later for doing that. Okay--enough for me promoting cybersecurity or I could spend hours talking about it--pardon me I can’t help it. Now let’s get to the point. Hihi. I divided the story into three parts: before, during, and after the exam.

Before the Exam

After I heard about the free online self-paced training and exam, I directly visited the website to get more information about it. After going through all the provided information, I decided to give it a go. I created an account and then completed the (ISC)2 candidate application form with certified in cybersecurity as my certification of interest. Shortly after that, I gained access to the training and exam registration. I picked the test center near UNSW as I am quite familiar with the location and for the date, I choose to have it after the new year since I wanted to have a full break during the year-end holiday.

When I almost finished the training, I was curious about what other people said regarding the exam. Was it difficult? Were the materials provided in the training enough? I was lucky that I tried to find the information or I would think that my simple preparation was enough. Unless you have quite intensive experience in the field, please go beyond the training materials. In my case, I read the Eleventh Hour CISSP®: Study Guide (Conrad et al, 2016--I found out that there is a newer edition of it but since I only had the third version, I used it). In total, the preparation took me 5 days during my university term break when I have no other agenda but studying (but of course, I didn’t study for 10 hours a day--I watched Chinese drama and did random things in between).

On the last day of preparation, I ensured that I understood everything I need to know (including bringing 2 personal IDs and how to get to the test center) then sleep early.

During the Exam

I arrived at the test center very early (I liked it this way for every exam I took) and then told the test administrator (TA) that I wanted to take an exam. He asked for my ID, had me submit my palm vein scan, and took my exam candidate's photo. He then guided me to the waiting room and said that I can take the exam whenever I am ready. After a quick review of the summary I wrote about the things I found challenging (such as the port numbers as during my time as an IT auditor, I didn't memorize them all), I entered the exam room and faced the 100 questions.

If you have read my previous exam experience posts, you would notice that I am a big fan of do-it-quickly-then-review-it. However, turned out that for this exam, this doesn’t apply. I was stubborn even after I saw there was no "back" button on the exam page to go to the previous question. I kept doing it quickly thinking that it might have a “review all” option after I finished all the questions. To my surprise, after I completed the 100^th questions, the only button left is “end exam”. Haha. I quietly had my panicky laugh because how can I be that stubborn to ignore the suspicion that I wouldn’t be able to review the answers. I finished the exam in 64 minutes out of the 120 minutes provided due to my obstinate attitude toward the sign. When you take the exam later, please learn from my mistake and use your time wisely.

I left the exam room hearing the TA ask me how was my exam experience. I told him that I was clueless that this exam didn’t let me go back to review my answers. He then told me usually exams have that feature, tried to console me. I thought I failed so I didn't have the courage to ask him about my results paper. While the exam was free, after all the effort I took during the supposed summer break when students usually don’t study at all, I found myself a bit disappointed.

“It’s okay. I learned my lesson that I shouldn’t treat everything solely based on my experience. Every case could be different.” I smiled at him eventually after regaining my balance.

“But you passed,” he handed me a piece of paper. It was the exam provisional results with the opening word 'congratulations'.

“Are you serious?” I couldn’t hide my shocked expression.

“Yes. Congratulations,” he threw me a reassuring smile as if he knew I wouldn’t believe the paper even when I read it by myself.

“Thank you so much. I really appreciate your help today,” I smiled at him back.

That confused face coincidentally reflected my actual expression upon receiving this paper :)

After the Exam

The day after the exam, I received an email stating that I officially passed the exam. The next step is to complete the online application, which the candidate must do within nine months of the exam date.  Within 24 hours after the application is completed, the candidate can perform the final step in the process which is paying the first Annual Maintenance Fee (AMF). Once the AMF payment is made, we will earn the certification.

You might ask, “so it is not actually free?”. It is free if all you want is knowledge provided in the training and the exam. It is still up to you whether you want to get the certification or not. In my case, as a little treat to myself, I don't mind spending $50 to get the certification. However, it is totally your choice to pay for it or not so don’t worry. Gaining knowledge and exam experience is valuable for us even without the certification.

The Tips

I wanted to close this post by sharing some tips based on my experience. First and foremost, understand why you need it. Only when you know the reason, do you have a strong determination to embrace the journey. Then, be sure to set aside enough time to study. Another important tip is to take advantage of all of the resources that are available to you. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you're struggling and ask someone when you are confused. Be sure to get plenty of rest and stay healthy in the days leading up to the exam. A clear mind and a healthy body will help you perform your best on exam day. Lastly, as you can't go back to the previous question, take your time to choose the answer before moving to the next question.

Okay. Before this post goes too long, I will end it here. I am happy to take your questions if you have any and if you need help, don’t hesitate to reach out. I wish you all the best.

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Indonesian Version: Pengalaman Mengikuti Ujian Certified in Cybersecurity (CC)

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Hello, everyone. I hope you all are doing well and staying safe. I’m humbled to share that I just officially got my CRISC (Certified in Risk and Information Systems Control) designation. I’ve committed to always writing down the tips to pass every certification exam I take as my token of gratitude and also to help CRISC aspirants out there, here is my story on how I passed the exam:

(P.S.: some of them are similar to the tips to pass a CISA exam and tips to pass a CGEIT exam I posted previously as I believed they shared the similar kind of necessary preparations)

1.   It always seems overwhelming, have confidence in yourself

I registered myself for the exam a year ago to only took the exam on the last possible date (1 year since the registration got approved). I kept delaying the preparation by telling myself that it would be an overwhelming process (talking about procrastination, I am a virtuoso. LoL). Other than that, I didn’t have enough confidence to take it sooner. What if I failed? I know the exam price isn’t cheap so I convinced myself only to take it when I am highly ready. Guess what? Little did I know, I can’t reschedule my exam date anymore because turned out I have spent almost 365 days postponing it. Hihi. And eventually, after the long delay, I only have 4 days of preparation! I was left panicked but there was no turning back. I can only move forward, ready or not.

If I can give my younger self some advice, it would be: certification exams always seem overwhelming. Have confidence in yourself and now start studying 😊

 2.     Give it up for criscexamstudy.com

Of course, 4 days of preparation is not a recommended practice. You all should learn from this procrastinator’s mistake of putting everything until the very end. With the limited time, I learned the material from criscexamstudy.com (this website was significantly helpful). Everyone, please study each material (which is neatly presented as key points--don’t we love that?) and the subsequent practice questions. I also identified my knowledge gaps and wrote down a note containing them. I reread it again whenever I could. I get a fairly comprehensive understanding of the key points covered in the CRISC exam in 2 days of studying it. It is safe to say that this website deserved an honorable mention.  

3. Attend a CRISC review training

When I said 4 days of preparation, what I meant is the intense self-study before the exam. However, definitely, the actual preparation wasn’t that short. Before attempting the CRISC exam, I attended preparation training. For those who want to strengthen their preparation and have the opportunity, please consider attending a CRISC review training. But don’t worry even if you can't sit in on the training, you can still have sufficient preparation.

 4. Obtain (technical and managerial) knowledge and experience in the IT risk and control fields

Having technical and managerial knowledge of IT risk and control is certainly substantial in solving CRISC exam questions. Regarding acquiring the needed knowledge, my advice is to read lots of references related to IT risk and control, discuss them with others, or join a community (or anything. Pick your favorite way of absorbing knowledge). Meanwhile, answering some CRISC exam questions, requires the candidate to be equipped with not only knowledge but also experience so real-life exposure will surely be beneficial. Experience shapes our logic, perspective, and wisdom which will make it easier for us to figure out the answers.

Besides, in my opinion, it's important to increase your exposure to IT terms and English (especially when IT isn't your major and English is not your first language). Familiarity with IT terms and English is advantageous!

5. Learn the CRISC Review Manual and the CRISC Review Questions, Answers & Explanations Manual (QAE)

Believe me that these two books published by ISACA are the sacred reference for every CRISC candidate. Take the time to read both of them, especially the QAE. Understand the explanation of the answers suggested by the book to get the logic, perspective, and wisdom that ISACA sets out. Also, make sure to study the latest version of these books. For now, the latest Review Manual is the 7th edition, and the QAE Review 6th edition.

6.  Let's practice through the mock exams

Having a mock exam is essential so that we get used to sitting and thinking without interruption and distraction for hours. Work on the questions until you score at least 80% right answers. I tried to complete each mock exam in 2 hours to exercise my quick thinking and ability to finish the exam under pressure. 

7. Mind our physical and mental state

Maintaining health and fitness for an exam is vital. Make sure you get enough sleep so that the next morning we are fit to do 150 questions in 4 hours. Also make sure we take our breakfast, arrive at the test center or proctored exam website early, and last but not least manage our emotional and mental state. Be calm. You have prepared enough and are ready to face this test. 

8. Pray

I will always repeat this in every exam tips I write because it is that salient. Pray that we will be at ease in working on those questions. Pray that the questions will favor our knowledge and preparation.

9. Miscellaneous Tips

a. First things first, read the syllabus to understand what is covered and the portion of each domain compared to the whole exam material.

b. Scheduling the exam is one of the best ways to start studying and then stick with the date. Please don't follow my experience of rescheduling it until the very last time.

c. The knowledge we gained from experience is something to be treated wisely: sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. The knowledge that we have gained may not be in line with the standards/frameworks set by the ISACA, so we must identify the alignment of our knowledge with the ISACA's body of knowledge.

10.  Tips During the Exam:

a.  If you take the exam at the test center, pay attention to the temperature of the test room. If it is too cold to stay inside for 4 hours, wear a jacket. Also, sit as comfortable as possible. Four hours is not a short time, sweetie. 😊

b. Do it serenely. We have a relatively long time to do it. If we are calm, we’ll be more careful. On exams where there are many tricky questions and answers (and accuracy becomes the key), managing our tranquillity is a must.

c. Focus on the easy questions first. We can skip the difficult/long questions (don't forget to flag them). We can always come back to them later.

d. Be careful with the “almost correct” answers. In general, CRISC questions leave us with 2 alternative answers that both seem true. Hehe. Make sure you choose the right one, not one which looks like it.

e. The duration of the exam allows us to review the answers. Review the answers as if we do it again from the beginning. Don't get bored just yet even though your stamina and concentration have decreased. Use the 4 hours fully.

f. If you take the option of a proctored exam (like what I did this time), you have toilet breaks twice (10 minutes each). These breaks are also provided if you take the test in the test center. Read the exam guidance thoroughly to know the do and don’t, like we shouldn’t read the question aloud. I advise you to launch the exam 30 minutes before your exam time. That way, in case you face technical issues, you still have time to solve them.

g. Don't forget to fill out the post-test questionnaires.

Those are the tips I can share with everyone who wants to take the CRISC exam. Good luck, everyone. If you have anything to ask, feel free to reach out. It's my pleasure to help you. Cheers!

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Indonesian version: Pengalaman Mengikuti Ujian CRISC

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Walked through the alley of deciduous trees

A soul's empty stare ahead froze my feet

That coppery gleam in thou--was it bonfire or fallen maple leaf

Someone’s gaze so dull yet blinding

Those sorrowful pools were an eternal maze

Thy eyes, the world’s autumns in entirety

Shall I look away from thy brown pearls

A pair of ice lumps

of an expressionless snowman

On this lengthen frosty night

But thy eyes, the crescendo wail I can’t escape from

Thou howled for help in silence

Immeasurable depth of misery I was scared of

As if a smile was once there then faded forever

The leaves fell as my heart fell

Was it me or was the season overdramatic?

'Tis I

Did all autumns act in theatrical?

Did I

Someone’s gaze so dim yet dazzling

A perpetual labyrinth I involuntarily stepped into

Might be I unreasonably longed for autumns

Thy eyes, the world’s autumns in entirety

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P.S:

1. Very much inspired by my sentimental melancholic-yet-consoling arrival in Australia when it was autumn. It was intriguing that something is both sad and comforting. I tried to personify that season into someone that has eyes containing the whole autumn seasons of the world. We can't help but fall for that season as if we fall for him. I also utilize autumn’s synonym “fall” to strengthen the emotions. Heavily influenced by Shakespeare’s Sonnet writing style and diction (did you notice the archaic words?) but of course, it was just my attempt. There is no way my writing could come close to Shakespeare’s quality.

2. I must say that I had so much fun writing this part:

"Was it me or was the season overdramatic?

'Tis I

Did all autumns act in theatrical?

Did I"

*'Tis: It is (archaic)

I wrote it on purpose as "did I" instead of "I did" to rhyme "'tis I" while at the same time making it sound like I questioned myself as well. It is I who is overdramatic. It is I who acted in theatrical. Don't blame the beautiful innocent autumn :)

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 "The first rule of any technology used in a business is that automation applied to an efficient operation will magnify the efficiency. The second is that automation applied to an inefficient operation will magnify the inefficiency." (Bill Gates)

(Hey, here I am with another (probably) hot take. You might think: doesn’t Nur Imroatun Sholihat advocate technology/automation implementation? Is she in her right mind when she said ‘don’t automate’? Please read till the end if you want, or at least the summary, okay? 😊)

Here’s the summary if you would prefer to not read the whole post: Use automation wisely, timely--be cognizant of what not to automate as much as what to automate, of when it is too early as much as it is too late.

     In my second term learning digital transformation at UNSW, I took a core course called Business Process Management (BPM). When I read the handbook, honestly, I was puzzled because a digital transformation should mostly be about digital, right? Why would the university’s School of Information Systems and Technology Management require the students to take such a course out of the blue?

      Now in week 8 of the course, I finally understood the reason why it’s made compulsory for the future digital transformation people. The realization still astonishes me today therefore I decided to write about it. Based on my newly-found understanding, at the heart of a digital transformation is the ‘transformation’, not the ‘digital’. The university wanted the students to, instead of jumping to automation directly, think more fundamentally when it comes to transforming the organization. The school taught the students to not consider automation as one solution for all. Automation is indeed one of the keys to the transformation door but let’s not be surprised that it isn’t the only one on the list (see the list below).

Redesign heuristics (Dumas et. al, 2018)

      Please don’t misunderstand me as I like automation as well (who wouldn’t though?). However, it concerned me that automation has grown as a solution that is easily misused. There is a common misperception that automation offers a magic mend to bad or broken processes. As much as I wanted it to be, let’s face it that it’s not Doraemon’s magic pocket (if it ever exists in real life) that solves all the problems instantly. It’s not a “plug-and-play” solution that could be straightforwardly implemented without careful adjustment and refinement.

      I know it’s uncomfortable to not directly think of automation when it’s already becoming one of the most-talked advancements organization could have. I also recognized how tempting shiny automation tools that promise exceptional optimization are. However, as I mentioned in my previous post, Luxury, “the ability to remain grounded amidst the sea of fancy buzzwords is a luxury. The ability to prioritize the fundamental things while having the serenity to not feel missed out is a luxury.”. Let’s have this uncomfortable discussion about the necessity and prioritization of automation.

      First, recognize that to fix a process to be in the best working order, automation isn't necessarily the most favorable answer. For example, does the process uniformly run or it has several unnecessary variations? If it has many variations, process standardization might provide more advantages than automation. Also, ask questions such as: is it better to be handled by machines or humans? Do the benefits of automation outweigh the costs? With our current capabilities and condition, when is the right time to automate? After that “pause and think” moment, we hopefully could gain a good working order, knowledge of which process to be automated, also investment and timing justifications.

     Second, as every organization operates with going concern assumption, act as a player in a long game. Not all automation initiatives should be implemented in a hurried manner--in other words: prioritize. Automation is known as resource-intensive activity therefore prioritization will help us to have steady measured steps. Identify business processes that present the quickest most meaningful wins and consider them as the earliest automation initiatives. The good news is: other initiatives can wait :)

     To conclude, implementing automation is definitely one big leap an organization could take. There is no doubt that a wise, timely implementation of the advancement will greatly benefit an organization. What it takes to get that wise, timely automation is a mindful slightly uncomfortable “pause and think” moment of what and when to automate. In most cases, what sets the successful automation implementation with the rest is that "pause and think" moment, which unfortunately seems unattractive in this fast-moving world.

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Reference: Dumas, M., La Rosa, M., Mendling, J., & Reijers, H. A. (2018). Fundamentals of business process management (2nd ed.). Springer Berlin.

P.S.:

1. What I enjoyed the most about studying master’s degree, besides meeting great minds, is how my knowledge is constantly challenged. When I'm proved wrong, I am happy knowing that through that process, I am a bit closer to knowing rightness. When I realize my knowledge is shallow, I enjoy deepening it through constant challenges. I think that’s the essence of a master’s degree: to make someone think a tad deeper and act a tad more purposefully. I am most grateful for those things.

2. Credit to my lecturers, George Joukhadar and Frieda Maher, who inspired me to think about automation deeper. Forever, it changed the way I think about automation.

3. After a long thought about this blog’s direction, finally I come up with #sensibletech, a section I dedicate to address my concerns regarding the thoughtful utilization of technology. Please look forward to more #sensibletech posts I will deliver in the future :)

Two months ago, I had my first term break and my Malaysian friends came up with the idea of one day trip to Newcastle. There were many beautiful attractions in that city and the last one we visited was Nobby’s Beach. Although I have visited several beaches in Sydney, this one radiated slightly deeper tranquility. I walked with an empty head through the pathway alongside the shore. There was nothing in my brain but admiration for the scenery. It has been a while since the last time I mindfully looked at the surrounding. Hence, it's safe to say that that evening was quite a memorable walk for me. 

At that moment, Maghrib prayer time arrived. Immediately, my friend and I approached the cold ocean water and performed ablution (wudhu). Using Google’s qibla finder, we figured out that we’d perform our prayer facing the beautiful lighthouse. After finished, we just silently sat and stared at the expanse of sand. The white phare was sparkling from far away. It was such a magical moment where I deeply reflected and thought about life.

During the first month in the Emerald City, I recalled feeling a tad uneasy about performing prayer. At the campus, I shall go search for a “safe space” to perform it or walk a long way to the religious center. To perform ablution, I needed to lift my legs to the sink, which made me worried to be perceived as weird. I remember feeling rather jittered when I perform prayer in public spaces, uncomfortable with people's stares. Everything was a brand new feeling for me who can perform it with no hassle back in Indonesia.

Later I remembered a conversation I had with my dad back then when I was very young. We had finished performing the Maghrib prayer and sat in the prayer room waiting for Isha time. When the time arrived, I said to him, “Shall I do ablution again? I believe there was nothing that invalidated my ablution but who knows I might forget or something else.”

“What’s so hard about doing an ablution, Im? Even a simple act like ablution is counted and rewarded by Allah. Every effort you put for Allah matters.” He advised. “Therefore, do your best for Allah.”

It reminded me that I should always put my best when it comes to my observance. I shall put aside my excuses and make my best attempt--and in the case where I've already put my best and that’s still much lacking, He is the all-forgiving. However, first, I need to put my best efforts into Him.

I remember one time when I was afraid that people in the street would stare at me praying, I decided to pray sitting. I defended myself that this might be the highest effort I can provide. However, verily that was not me giving my all. Accordingly, it is ironic that I haven’t tried my best yet asking Him to send all the good things to my life. What a shame that I couldn’t even perform the most important ritual properly yet think that I deserve a flowery fate.  

What’s my excuse for not performing prayer properly when even people in the war zone, with disabilities,  in extreme poverty, etc could perform it appropriately? What’s my excuse to feel discouraged to perform prayer in public spaces when even during the period when Prophet and his companions were afraid that they would be attacked, they still performed it one after the other? Where is my gratefulness for this perfectly-functioned body, decent life, and peaceful situation? 

I stared at the beautiful beacon, with the peaceful calming sound of the beach in my ears and tears covered my eyes. As a woman full of excuses ‘’I don’t think I can”, “Shall I take the easy road?”, and “No need to put more effort as this is also acceptable”, I reflected on this mistake of mine. As a Muslim, I know I thoroughly lacked perseverance. I had too many sins that might put me in a position of not deserving anything good. Nevertheless, He still bestowed me His mercy and favors. 

Lost track of time, the sky gradually turned black. My heart felt warm on this cold seashore due to the thankfulness for this experience of becoming a minority. I appreciated how my love for Allah has grown through difficult times. I stared again at the radiant lighthouse, this time with a smile. As the lighthouse guides mariners, thank You for always guiding me. Alhamdulillah.

Love,

iim

 All human wisdom is summed up in these two words, --wait and hope. (The Count of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas)

A few weeks ago, I visited Cockatoo Island with The UNSW’s Postgraduate Council. This island is a UNESCO World Heritage Site formerly operated as a convict penal establishment. On this trip, the participants walked around the historically significant place accompanied by a tour guide. After a short ferry ride from Barangaroo Wharf, we were welcomed by light rain on the site.

While waiting for the tour guide to arrive, the group had lunch together in a coastal restaurant. After finishing my food, I glanced at my watch checking whether it was already prayer time. I approached the trip leader to get her permission to excuse myself for a while.

“Is it okay if I pray for approximately 10 minutes?” I softly spoke beside her.

“Of course.” she put down the pizza in her hand. “Take as much time as you need. We’ll wait.” she smiled.

I immediately thanked her and then went to pray. While walking to the beach to perform ablution, I suddenly felt a strangely vivid feeling. What she said struck a chord in me. Take as much time as you need--how I wish I could tell myself this very sentence every day. Therefore, when someone said those words to me, I got a tad emotional--I wish I was in my room so I can sob. In this convict site, I realized I myself was a convict of my own self-reproach. I internally spoke “dear self who often blames herself for walking too slowly and taking too much time to reach 'places', take as much time as you need.” while patting my shoulder. I very much deserved it after years of self-blaming.  

One of the most relatable quotes for me is Bolin Shijiang’s “The world is so big and I walk slowly. What if I never find what I am looking for?”. Even since I was a child, I noticed that I seemed to "walk" relatively slower than most people. The realization got more intense as now I am pursuing a master’s degree at this age. Almost everyone in my classes was in their early twenties yet shined brightly as if they have had 10 years of work experience. Sometimes it discouraged me that I couldn’t even manage my academic life properly while those youngsters could. It reminded me of many things that come relatively later to me compared to the others. The list is extensive I wouldn’t even try to mention the content. I remember how I grew up as someone who appeared confident outside but timid inside. Truthfully, my constant failure to keep up with the “regular” timeline contributed to turning me into someone who was easily frightened and lacked confidence. 

In a world where people in the fast lane are more appreciated, I confusedly walked with a low velocity. I was drowned in a society where the deadline is tight, the expectation is high, the pace is hurried, and the competition is tough. Therefore, I was forced to rush and be impatient. I felt despair when I haven’t gotten/achieved something while everyone around me has already enjoyed it. It was so discouraging to still wait for my turn to get a piece of cake when everyone has moved on with a bigger slice. I'm worried that I don’t have time to wait anymore--my heart murmured when I was extremely weary. On many occasions, I stared blankly and thought that probably what I wait for would never come. I've already missed the train and there is no other train afterward, or even there is no train for me in the first place--my inner voice convinced me--therefore I am stuck in the same place even though a long period of time has gone by. 

However, what she said that day straighten up my slumped shoulders. The knowledge that I can take all the time I need brings light to my dim heart. I might be left behind in everything based on society’s standards but I have the right to take as much time as I need. It’s totally okay to walk slowly or even intentionally slow down my pace when I need it. No matter how much time I need, I can wait. Even with the broken hope, I am allowed to wait. No matter how long shall I wait, or how slow my pace is, it is always okay.

Love,

iim

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P.S.:

1. When I am writing this post, one of my lecturers sent an email to the students regarding the group creation and his closing sentence was “Please do NOT feel bad if you aren’t yet in a group-- I was picked last throughout my life and I (just about) did ok in the long run! 😊”. God knew I needed to hear additional encouragement. Even as someone who was already a part of a group since the first week, this uplifting message is powerful. Tears ran down my face as I know how it feels to be the last. Never underestimate the power of kind and encouraging words. You never know that somewhere, someone really needs to hear that. Thank you, Prof! I adore your kindness from the first time I attended the class.

2. Have you ever read Alexandre Dumas's "The Count of Monte Cristo"? The novel suddenly popped up in my mind when I wanted to write about convicts. Or have you ever read Bolin Shijiang's "Entrust the Rest of My Life to You"? :)