Holla everyone. Malam ini ini saya tengah bernostalgia dengan TI. Skripsi yang sedang terseok-seok (biar dramatis. hihi) saya tulis mengangkat tema IT governance audit (audit tata kelola teknologi informasi). Tiba-tiba juga sore ini kepala bagian saya di kantor, Bapak Tri Achmadi, menghubungi saya. Jadilah saya semakin terjebak dalam nostalgia tentang hal yang setahun lalu saya tinggalkan sementara itu. Saya merasa kangen untuk bercerita tentang TI. So, here I am with my earnest nostalgia about IT :)

/Fill each other’s cup but not drink from one cup/ Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf/ Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone/ Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping/  (“On Marriage” from The Prophet, Kahlil Gibran)

Yang artinya kira-kira begini:

Saling mengisi cangkir masing-masing tetapi tak meminum dari satu cangkir/ Berbalas memberi roti milikmu tetapi tak memakan dari satu tempat roti/ Menyanyi dan menari bersama dan bersuka cita tetapi mengijinkan tiap-tiap dari kalian untuk sendirian/ Memberikan hatimu tetapi tidak dalam pemeliharaan satu sama lain/

“Allah knows what is in every heart.” (Al Mulk: 13)

Lately, I’m attached to the phrase “Allah knows” once over again (surely can’t get over it). Been an avid admirer of this beautiful phrase and the admiration only getting stronger over time. There are a lot of verses in the holy Al Quran which described it. Allah knows every secret even the most hidden one. Nothing in the earth and in the hereafter is hidden from Him. Whatever happens in this earth, even every fallen leaf, with His knowledge. Only Allah knows the unseen. Verily, nothing escapes His knowledge no matter how tiny it is.

He is aware of all that we do. He sees our struggle in each and every situation. He knows our effort when nobody knows. He already knew what we are longing for yet still listens to our prayer. He never leaves us even for a blink of an eye, for worse or better. He acknowledges the time we silently feel so wounded and broken. He knows the hidden tears behind our eyes. He knows how hard we try to smile while the sorrow takes over our hearts. He knows how much exactly our hearts ache. He knows how tired our mind and soul are. He understands our confusion as we feel so lost in the middle of a catastrophe. Indeed He’s The All-Knowing.

But hey, Allah knows all the burdens we bear. He knows what the hearts conceal. No matter how lonely we think we are, Allah accompanies us in an incomparably near distance. He’s closer than our jugular vein. For that, O ya Allah, remind us that You’re always there for us.

The knowledge that Allah knows our hardship is sufficient to make us calm and composed conquering the difficulties. The feeling of knowing He knows and keeps a watch over us is the best medicine for every pain. Allah knows what is best for us and when it is best for us to have it. Allah knows—and that should be enough.

Ya Aaliim, You know how much pains and hardships my bruised heart has gone through. Please guide me, help me go through them, My Lord. 

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image source: pinterest.com
(I want to give the proper credit because I know where did the quote in the picture come from. "Every sparkling tear on every eyelash, Allah knows." is taken from Zain Bikha's Allah Knows.)

Seorang sahabat baru saja pulang dari ibadah umrah. Tak dinyana-nyana ucapannya kala itu, “ Im,  minggu depan aku sama sekali nggak bisa diganggu.” itu bermakna dia akan mengunjungi rumah Allah. Sepulangnya dari tanah suci, dia mengungkapkan banyak sekali cerita dari ibadahnya itu. Banyak sekali kisah darinya tentang Mekah dan Madinah yang membuat saya terdiam. Mendengar ceritanya saja membuat hati bergetar. Saya jadi ingat waktu liburan di rumah kemarin, bapak menasihati saya untuk meniatkan diri mendaftar haji karena saya sudah nisab. Kata bapak, saya bersalah dan berdosa kalau terus menunda-nunda nabung haji. Haji adalah kewajiban setiap umat muslim yang sudah mampu. Kalau sudah nisab ya harus dilaksanakan--tidak perlu menunggu tua atau punya ini itu terlebih dahulu. Terlebih, kita tidak pernah tahu kapan ajal akan menjemput. Huhu. Alhamdulillah saya masih ditegur untuk memperbaiki diri. Ya Allah, semoga Engkau memberi kesempatan hamba untuk juga bisa mengunjungi rumah-Mu. Semoga Engkau memberi umur bagi hamba untuk bisa menunaikan ibadah haji. Semoga Engkau memudahkan rezeki dan jalan hamba ya Allah.